Poem\ PURE KONFESSIONS /by: N.S.an(INSANE) MINISTRY

TAKE A LOOK INTO MY EYES AND TELL ME WHAT YOU SEE. DO YOU SEE WHAT MOTIVATED ME TO STAY WITH YOU? ...NO MATTER WHAT!?! NEVER DOUBT MY LOVE. IT KANT BE MOVED. I KANT BE WITHOUT YOU! EVER SINCE I LET YOU IN MY WORLD... ITS YOU!! WHAT I BEEN WAITIN FOR... IS YOU!! I DONT KNOW HOW TO LET GO OF YOU! AND PRAY I NEVER FIND OUT. TO LOSE YOU IS A FORM OF PHYSICAL DEATH. ...THAT WOULD ONLY LEAVE MY SOUL TO GRIEVE!! TO LOOK IN HER EYES IS SO KLEANSING. TO TOUCH HER IS MY REKONSTRUKTION. TO FAR IN TO TURN BAKK. ...*sigh*...DEEP ENOUGH TO SHARE!!! LOVE STRUKK SO STUPID... I DONT KARE!!! SHE IS MY AIR. I BURN FOR HER. OTHER PEOPLE VOICES ARE SILENT. THEIR THOUGHTS GO UNHEARD! ONLY WHAT I FEEL FOR HER EXISTS!!! IT ONLY NEEDS TO MAKE SENCE TO ME!!! BUT IT REALLY DOESN'T MAKE SENCE TO ME...EITHER. IT DOESN'T HAVE TOO. BUT MY SOUL AND HEART ARE KONNEKTED AND, KONTROL ME. MY LOVE FOR HER IS AS PURE AS GODS LOVE FOR ME!!! HOW KAN THAT BE WRONG!?! WELL... PUNISH ME!?! I ACCEPT. I DONT KNOW WHAT YOU DONE. I'M JUST GLAD YOU DID IT!!! AND PLEASE KONTINUE. TO KILL ME WOULD BE EASY.... JUST TAKE HER AWAY. (end)

DEAR GOD - MUSIK + POETRY=SOULFOOD blog

DEAR GOD - MUSIK + POETRY=SOULFOOD blog

my answer to the songs: can u pay my bills,i hate u so much right now,scrubs, and the movie waiting to exhale...lol

GOLD DIGGIN WIC CHIKEN(SECTION 8) - MUSIK + POETRY=SOULFOOD blog

GOLD DIGGIN WIC CHIKEN(SECTION 8) - MUSIK + POETRY=SOULFOOD blog

PRAYER FOR TRUE LOVE(pt.III): BY-N.S.an(INSANE) MIMISTRY

MY EYES SKREAM IN SILENCE AS THEY GAZE UPON HER... FIXATED ON HER, DANCING WITH HER EVERY MOVE! SHE... MAKES MY THOUGHTS TURN TO FANTASIES... MY FANTASIES... TO GOD WILLING PRAYERS... HER SMILE... HAND PAINTED BY GOD HIMSELF! ONE LOOK IS NOT LONG ENOUGH, AS ONE STARE... DOES NOT LAST A LIFETIME! HER PICTURE GRACES MY CELL PHONE...MY COMPUTER... AND KOVERS MY HEART. MY BRAIN... THE PUPPETMATER THAT WILLS ME TOWARD HER. POWERLESS TO STOP IT, BUT WOULD DO NO SUCH THING IF I KOULD! NO MATTER MY TASK... THOUGHTS SHIFT BACK TO HER... AS IF UNKONSCIOUSLY. LOVE IS BEAUTIFUL... BUT IT IS A LEAP OF FAITH ON A DARE, SO TO SPEAK. TO HAVE HER FOR A LITTLE WHILE, WOULD BE BETTER THAN NOTHING AT ALL!... I HAVE NEVER SEEN AN ANGEL... BUT IM SURE SHE THE KLOSEST THING I WILL EVER SEE TO ONE. HER BEAUTY SO PURE, THERE IS A GLOW AROUND HER. ALL DAT SHE IS... I WILL FIND OUT. I AM AN OPEN BOOK, OF MY TRUTH TO HER. AS NOTHING KAN BE BUILT ON LIES. ON MY KNEES TELL GOD THAT I WILL ALLOW NO HARM TO HIS ANGEL. IF BLEESED WITH HER... RUNNING TOWARD HER FULL SPEED. BLIND TO ALL BUT HER. MY HEART SITS... QUED... WAITING ON HER. AS I LAY ALONE IN DARKNES. HER THOUGHTS ARE IS SO VIVD... ITS AS IF SHE WAS LYING IN MY ARMS PHYSIKALLY. MY HANDS BEG TO RUN MY FINGER THROUGH HER HAIR AS WE KISS DEEPLY. MY ARMS YEARN TO HOLD HER KLOSE UNTIL OUT HEARTS SYNC AS ONE. MY HANDS TWITCH TO MASSAGE HER RELAXED. I KANNOT RESIST HER BODYS MANETIK FIELD! IT ONLY MAKES IT WORSE FOR ME TO TRY TO DENY. I WILL TAKE ALL HARM AND SACRIFICE THAT KOMES FROM A BAD CHOICE... IN THE PRAYER THAT IT GOES RIGHT FOR HER LOVE. I SAID, "I WILL TAKE ALL HARM AND SACRIFICE THAT KOMES FROM A BAD CHOICE... IN THE PRAYER THAT IT GOES RIGHT FOR HER LOVE. JUDE ME... BUT NOT THIS MANS HEART! YOUR BODY IS NOT NOURISHED... UNLESS YOU FEED THE MIND. AND YOUR SPIRIT WILL NEVER FLY FREE, UNTIL YOU SEARCH YOUR SOUL FOR KORE VALUES. I KAN SEE HER HEART. I WANT IT SO. NUTURE IT BACK TO HEALTH. GUARD IT WITH MY LIFE WITHOUT QUESTION! SEASONS CHANGE... BUT MY LOVE WILL NEVER. I AM MAN ENOUGH TO STAND ON THAT. I AM READY FOR HER... I AM HERE, STEADFAST. SO HERE I AM, WITH JOY IN MY EYES, AND LOVE IN MY HEART, WITH AN OUTSRETCHED HAND... AMEN. [[ END ]].


**THIS POEM IS WROTE FOR SOMEONE VERY SPECIAL TO MY HEART.**

N.S.an(INSANE) MINISTRY: MUSIK AND POETRY MOVEMENT: DARK LOVE by: N.S.an(INSANE) MINISTRY

N.S.an(INSANE) MINISTRY: MUSIK AND POETRY MOVEMENT: DARK LOVE by: N.S.an(INSANE) MINISTRY: "I MISS YOUR SEXY VOICE. YOUR IN MY MIND SIMILAR TO DOPE IN MY VEINS.  YOU ARE LIKE A DREAM TO ME BABY. AND I NEVER WANT TO WAKE UP!&nbs..."

PARKIN LOT PIMPIN by N.S.an(INSANE) MINISTRY

PARKIN LOT PIMPIN by N.S.an(INSANE) MINISTRY

EXACTLY HOW : N.S.an(INSANE) MINISTRY

I HAVE MADE MANY CHOICES TO MAKE MYSELF A PAVEMENT THROUGH LIFE,  WHAT I THOUGHT WAS RIGHT , WAS WRONG; AND NOW ALL I SEE IS STRIFE.  IT SEEMS EVERY PATH I TAKE BRINGS ME BACK TO WHERE I ALREADY WAS; JUST SPINNING MY WHEELS,  I AM TRYING TO BE POSIYIVE, BUT DOWN IS HOW I DEFINITELY FEEL.  I HAVE LOTS TO LOOK BACK ON, BUT NOTHING TO LOOK FORWARD TO,  SO I DWELL ON THE PAST, WHAT ELSE IS A TROUBLED MIND TO DO?  I HAD EVERYTHING I WANTED... YET STILL WANTED EVERYTHING I SAW,  IT TOOK LOSING EVERYTHING... THEN LOOKING FROM THE OUTSIDE IN, TO RECOGNIZE THIS FLAW.  NOW IT SEEMS ALL I DO IS SIT... MAD, REMINISE, AND GET HIGH TO TRY TO BLOK THE PAIN,   ALONE, LONELY, BITTER, ANGRY, AND SO-SO UPSET AT MYSELF,  GOT MY BLOOD PRESSURE UP FROM STRESS AND THOUGHTS OF SUISIDE KEEP TAUNGHTING AT MY HEALTH.  IN THE END, ALL THAT I DID I KAN BLAME NOONE ELSE.  I PRAYED AND PRAYED FOR BLESSINGS TO BE SENT,  BUT I DIDNT REALIZE I HAD THEM TIL THEY WERE ALREADY SPENT.  I HAVE WASTED OVER HALF MY LIFE SLANGIN, BANGIN, BALLIN ON TOP,  DIDNT EVEN FEEL MYSELF SLIDE BEFOR I DROPPED.  EVEN NOW I SIT HERE TRYING TO FIGURE  OUT WHAT IT ALL MEANS,  WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO GET OUT OF WHAT THE FUK IVE DONE AND SEEN?  DOES IT ALL HAVE A PURPOSE? WAS IT ALL FOR A MUTHA FUKIN REASON?  DEAR GOD HELP ME!.. IM SO TIRED OF FEELING THIS SAME OLD SEASON.  I KNOW GOD HAS A MESSAGE FOR HIDDEN SOMEWHERE,  THIS IS NOT WHY HE PUT ME HERE, IT WONT BE LIKE THIS FOREVER... TO THINK DIFFERENT I TRY NOT TO DARE,  (SIGH)... I JUST HOPE I FIND THE MESSAGE WHILE I STILL SEEM TO KARE.  I KNOW HE WOULDNT BRING ME HERE TO LEAVE ME FORSAKE AND FORGOT,  SO I BEG IN MY PRAYERS TO FOR CLEAR EYES TO SEE MY WAY BAK TO THE TOP.  *END*